The kissless kiss

Black out caused the delay in posting….sorry

Twelve o’clock was getting nearer and my anticipation was getting the better of me. As midnight came closer my reality began to get fuzzy. I had Johnny not only proposing to me and taking me out the side door and off to our honeymoon! Casper came down to see if I was going to be upstairs. I asked Little Sal to watch the door. “and if I don’t come back, you were..okay to work with.” I said with all my sincerity.” “Where do you think you’re going?” he inquired. I thought it was lovely how he could play dumb…then again, maybe he wasn’t…
I went up-stairs and stopped Johnny standing all alone in the corner. I bopped over and casually stood next to him. I didn’t want to make it look to obvious. He turned to me and said “Hey. They let you out of your cage?...Good to see you!” then he hugged me. I was in heaven!
“Well someone has to kiss you at 12:00” I boldly said, I shocked myself. “I’ll make sure you are the first one I kiss” he said as he went on to chat with Chris and Dominick. Casper was poking me with delight. I was on cloud nine!
I was right next to John when the countdown began and my mind and fantasy was racing…”10, 9 – our bedroom will be in peach…8,7… no peach is too gay even for the 80’s… 6, 5…Battleship grey…4, 3 …It’s going to happen!..2, 1…HAPPY NEW YEAR! I turned to kiss John and as our lips were about to touch Oe spun him around and kissed him on the lips!
I stood there stunned. My life ending! John went on to kiss Casper and Dom and turned to me and said, “I got you already didn’t I?” The music continued to play and I stood in the middle of the dance floor stunned. People kissed me and I did not respond I just stood there- stunned.
As I walked from the dance floor I felt like I was walking the gang plank, reach step I went down made my heart sink even deeper. I went into the coatroom still stunned and had Lil Sal saying something to me. I couldn’t hear him. I never got my kiss and John didn’t even know or care.
Lil Sal gave me a hug…”Hey, why so sad. I know, I know- okay, You can kiss me on the cheek in public.”
I broke into tears while hugging him and felt him hug me to himself even tighter.
I never had a fantasy come true and that night was no exception.
Till tomorrow, be kind