How Do You Turn Hard?

With the beginning of the New Year came my new attitude. No more sweet, sequin sewing Sandra Dee! I started o play the game and I was going to win no matter what the cost was. I went into the bar the next night determined to forget John and focus on a Featherette reunion- easier said than done. I walked in and banged right into him. He was flustered and ran away from me in such a hurry he banged into a wall. I felt so bad. I didn’t want this, I just wanted to love someone-him.
It’s so hard to say good-bye to your dream. I was like a steam engine in my pursuit of him. Being with John was perfect for me; I just could not understand him not wanting me. It is quite a shock when you take off those rose colored glasses and see the true colors of the world around you. I was never lonely when I was dreaming of being with John. The thought of him made me feel safe and warm, now I was cold and I felt hardness taking over.
For so long I convinced everyone that I was not lonely as long as I had hope that John and I would one day be together, but when the excuses and the real fact that he did not want me I couldn’t lie or pretend I was alone and lonely! I wanted to tell him that and so many other things, but Casper convinced me not to. He told me to stay away from John and let him have his room. I was in no position to disagree; I made a grown man cry.
Whether is was because we were gaining our own independence or the fact he was bored, Hank started the New Year making demands on us. I was his comic and after the “Spic and Span-ish” fiasco he let me do my own thing; Sami would come in and just close shows. The tension was growing between Terry and Casper- they were both disco divas and competing for the same audience.
Hank was pushing Casper to be his next star and Casper, quite surprisingly, went along with Hank. No one knew why until Terry exposed the truth.
It seems a friend of Terry, Eddie, had found out that Casper was underage and using fake ID. Terry was thrilled to run and tell Hank, “for the sake of the bar and the livelihood of the workers.” Casper was gone and another name Hank would not allow was to say in his presence.
Needless to say conversations with Hank was getting hard with so many on his poop list. Casper explained to Sami and I that his” age” was the reason he went along with so many of Hank’s zany ideas.
With Casper gone the shows were down to me , Terry and Sami…By the next show we would be down one more performer. Seems Sami refused to do a number that Hank had wanted him to do. He flung a waiters tray across the dance floor and before the tray hit the wall Sami was banished.
I was getting lonelier as the weeks went on. FEATHER the ultimate show place was turning into a battlefield bloodier than WWII.
The shows were now me and Terry and even that was about to change….
Till Tomorrow, Be kind.